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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-11 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, to think you have such high opinion of your quarters!

( She snorts, letting herself be pulled in without resistance. Once she is tight against his side and chest she curls further in, the side of her face pressed against his chest and her own arm lying over it, her fingers playing with the fur hem of his shawl.

No one has offered him a change of clothes. Pahja thinks he wouldn't take it if they had.

Her smile fades slightly; with him there is no need to pretend that she is not tired, worn down, faced with a bone deep exhaustion that obligation keeps her from resolving. Emet understands; her fingers curl further into the fur.
)

They only want to make sure you're not up to trouble. Although-- ( A bemused shake of her head, muffled and resigned laughter following. ) They would also insist that should you come to harm it'd be your own fault. And, if I do say so myself, we couldn't keep you anywhere you didn't want to be.

( Bold to call him out? Perhaps, but Pahja has never pulled punches in her life and she certainly isn't going to start with Emet. Not when she wonders if there are scars running over his chest from the blow she dealt him. )
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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-11 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
( Wisdom demands that feeling safe within the arms of a man who would have stopped at nothing to kill her, her friends, and all of the world is impossible. Pahja knows this, and yet it doesn't change the warmth that spreads within her, the feeling of peace that washes over her as he surrounds her. Perhaps it's part of her soul, calling out for the comfort of another known to it.

Perhaps it's that Pahja has never known to do anything by halves, including who she might give her heart to; Emet has it within his hands as surely as she knows that she holds the chains that keep him close.

Laughing, she lets him take her hand, meeting his golden eyes with sly grin.
)

My lips? Hm, I was unaware of any healing properties they might have -- I think a demonstration is in order.

( Teasing, but she will leave the ball in his court; Pahja knows that for all his bluster he is sentimental to the last, achingly so. Denying that they have any connection at all is commonplace, as his complaining, but he still answered her call for him -- twice over. And this time she is not eager to see him leave.

(Hythlodaeus, too, but he keeps himself otherwise occupied, as charmed as he is by all living creatures. At least Pahja is mostly certain he will not end up on the wrong end of something with a great many rows of teeth.)
)
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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-12 06:05 am (UTC)(link)
( Simple, no. But neither is life, with all its heartache and loss, but it is worth experiencing. And whatever connection they have, whatever relationship it may take form, would be worth the risk. On that front she knows that she and Emet are agreed, if perhaps coming at it from entirely different angles.

But who would he be if not frustrating and so intent on putting barriers between her and what she wants?

His statement earns him a roll of her eyes and a poke in the side, though she knows both of them have no wish for either of them to field another option -- for healing or for kissing. Calling him on it would be a mute point when she can instead tease him for it.
)

Oh? Perhaps Thancred, then. For your succor and my kiss--

( Pahja makes a move -- half-hearted and with no strength nor real intent -- to extract herself from his arms. )

I shall go get him if you wish, or perhaps you would like to accompany me? His expression would be priceless.
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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-12 06:01 pm (UTC)(link)
( He's right, of course. She would never leave his arms for Thancred in truth, nor anyone on the Source or any shard that exists. Here, with him, is exactly where she wishes to be for as long as she has. And when her soul returns to the Aetherial Sea, she knows that he will return with her so their souls can find peace together until the next life.

There is comfort in that, Pahja thinks, of a bond that lasts throughout lives.
)

I have a certain zest for danger, as anyone will tell you. ( Pahja jests, tail flicking in clear approval of the way he is not letting her go, keeping her here in his arms and so, so close. Jumping in without looking is her forte, and so she turns her head enough that their lips brush -- not kissing yet, but the promise is there. ) Now then, what ails you so, Hades, that I must remain here to tend to you alone?

( She moves slightly -- not to pull away, but to throw a leg over his hip, pulling herself more flush with him than before. But she does not press him for anything he is not willing to give. )
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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-12 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
( He kisses her before she has a chance to respond with some remark; probably his plan all things told, and Pahja can't find it within her to break it in order to. She'll have the last word later, instead she occupies with kissing him back. Gentle, yes, but also with a longing she would be foolish to deny.

He has been taken from her so many times now -- each time harder to let go than the last, the more she learns about him. It is a great unfairness, she thinks, but her reward is him. Whole and hale and kissing her.

Pahja returns it with exuberance once she feels as if she is no longer taken aback by the sheer novelty of kissing him until she must break away. But she does not go far, happy to remain pressed against him.

Sliding her free hand into his jackets might be presumptuous, curling into the fabric over his heart to hold him fast, but Pahja has ached in heart and body too long to not learn what boundaries he is willing to set in the moment. Breathless she finally retorts, though it is far less of their push and pull and more wanting.
)

Anything you might have of me, Emet, is yours until you no longer have to save me.

( Until they can both return to the star. Her own wide eyes darken further, narrowing in her eagerness to, if not devour him whole, then to enjoy the moment to the fullest. )
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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-12 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)
( They will wander together one day, when the mood takes her and the winds are right. Pahja hopes, wishes, expects Emet to follow; the chains she holds are made of love and not hate; if he should desire them broken then he need only say the word. For now, however, she is content to remain in place for a little while longer before setting out, wandering once more. There are so many mysteries -- as he so wisely pointed out -- that she will have plenty to contend with in time.

Ever living in the moment means that her focus is on the here and now, on Emet's grip on her and the way his lips feel against her skin, warm and resonating a familiarity deep within her soul. She gasps at the shock of it but welcomes it all the same -- she is Pahja, not Azem -- and only recently has she been able to define herself against the weight of that legacy. And in doing so, has never felt more herself nor more able to embrace the truth of her soul.

Emet's dark eyes capture her's and she wants nothing more than to fall into whatever his expression and gaze promise; settling fully into his lap and pushing back against his grip, wanting more. A nameless, all consuming want for everything he could give her, everything he would offer.

A breathless laugh his his reward at such praise, her eyes gleaming.
)

Then by your leave, indulge. I would find not fault in it, nor the desire or want to dissuade you.

( If he should make her plead with him, well. Her pride makes her stride forward unbent and unbroken in her stubbornness, yet she knows when to fold the hand she was dealt in order to win.

Instead she presses a kiss to the tip of his nose, the crest of his cheekbones, the center of his forehead. The corner of his mouth in a gentle tease.
)
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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-13 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
( Emet is entrancing like this, Pahja thinks, smiling wide enough that her cheeks might hurt ere she continues. Perhaps not completely at ease with the world around him but comfortable enough to let down his guard with her -- the flush that spreads across his pale skin, his dark lashes against the same.

One of her hands comes up to cup the line of his jaw, fingers hooking behind it to hold him there while their kiss lasts; the small nip is enough encouragement for her to open her mouth to him, kissing him as deep as he will allow her to. Not demanding, never that -- especially now. But she can't help the warmth that flows through her, the desire that threatens to emerged from a banked fire in her heart.

For all the things life has taken away from her, she can keep this. She can have him. For as long as she lives, and for however long he will have her; perhaps afterwards, when their souls will return together. And again, and again--

There is peace there, in that truth.
)

Not for lack of trying! ( She interjects, as if that is the point and not the way they fit together now, the way his hand curves around her ass and the way she rolls her hips forward -- shallow, questioning, asking. ) But in this-- are we of one mind, Emet?

( Pahja could not, would not presume until she hears it from him, however breathless he might make her. Pulling back only so she can watch his face, her eyes fixated on his ere he opens them, thumb caressing the blooming brush. )
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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-15 12:01 am (UTC)(link)
( That he is not so unmoved by her, by this, is a bolstering thought. She knows he is interested, has suspected for a while -- and even on the First -- that it would be possible, but part of Pahja always envisioned him desperate not to show outwardly his want, his heart.

Full glad is she to know that it is not the case.

A monster to others he might be, a monster he might have become, but she could never claim to not understand why -- pushed to desperation, out of grief and longing. Set adrift for thousand upon thousands of years in the vain hope to reclaim the lives that were lost; she may not agree but she can never claim to never understand.

It hits an ache within her, this one of sorrow, when he holds her close. The slow rise and fall of his chest, the timber of his voice -- Pahja kisses him once more, deep and full of longing, before she responds.
)

Nothing more than the wish to have all of you. ( A simple request, her eyes darting up to hold his gaze. And then, as the corner of her mouth turns up into a sly, scheming smile: ) To feel you in me, Emet. To have your hands on my hips and my breasts. To cry out with every thrust until the only word I can form is your name.

( Her eyes darken, pupils wide. )

Please, Emet-Selch.
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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-23 11:07 pm (UTC)(link)
( All of him, and she does not look away. Instead she shudders, shivers at the touch of his lips and his fingers with want and a deep, unending affection that she knows is part of the core of her, her soul.It was not fate that made her love him, nor some greater design, but all of her celebrates the fact that she does.

Pahja runs her hand through his hair, claws scraping the skin at the nape of his neck gently, so gently. She will be kind to him, she wants to be good for him. To let him shuck the weight of his burdens for a time, to share them to the best of her ability.
)

Has nothing I have accomplished proved that I am a woman of my word, yet still you doubt me? ( It is all she manages to get out before the unmistakable hardness of his want steals her breath away, the press of his fingers between her legs a tease that blows her eyes wide and her mouth open as a soft, shaky moan falls from her lips. Luckily he is there to swallow it, and she presses further -- mouth and lips to kiss him deeper, press down against him with another roll of her hips. ) All of you, Hades. Every sin, every burden, every scar on your soul.

( Her fingers drag down the line of his jaw, down his neck -- fingers brushing over his collarbones. But she does not wrap them around his neck, does not look on him with malice or even pity. There is only love in her gaze, in her touch as she rolls her hips once more, gasping at the friction. )

I want it all.
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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-26 04:32 pm (UTC)(link)
( Oh.

His touch has her shaking already, and Pahja swallows heavily against his lips in order to hold herself together or they both will shake apart too soon. She wants to see him come undone this way, whole and hale, than through violence -- but by her hand, still. Curling her fingers into his clothes makes heeding his request difficult, and Pahja kisses him with a desperation she's finally allowing herself to feel: wanting him, losing him, and now -- having him at last. It makes it difficult to separate herself from him.

But she does, gasping as she ends the kiss so that she can strip as quickly as possible. One for flashiness, Pahja curses her taste in clothing as it takes time to shed it all -- and every moment spent not pressed against him is time wasted.
)

Even that, Emet -- that will be enough. ( Breathless, she rolls her hips down against him, gasping at the weight and the hardness against her. Close to what she wants, what they want, but not quite. ) On the First I thought-- ( Pahja swallows her hesitation, continuing on-- ) I thought I might love you given time.

( Her tunic is off, cast to the side carelessly. Gooseflesh rises on her bare skin in the coolness of the air; grey-blue skin almost blending into the surrounding stone of Mor Dhona. Next are her gloves, her boots, and finally her shorts and smalls -- though this she does have to life herself up off of him to rid herself of them.

The fact that he remains fully dressed doesn't bother her; she's not a shy woman, and is quick to resettle against his hips and his chest the moment she can, enjoying the feeling of expensive cloth and fur against her bare skin.

Her fingers curl again into his clothes as she pulls him down for another kiss, demanding and accepting all at once.
)

Let me see your body then, let me show you how much I love you.
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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-27 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
Enough by half. You will never be free of me now, not in this life and not in the next.

( No, their souls will stay together. A silly pledge to make, perhaps, but is one she would swear by. If there was one thing the past gods-know-how-long has taught her it is that her soul belongs with his and Hythlodaeus.

She would tell him that, if he were not so successful at diverting her thoughts from anything but this: the press of her flesh against his clothes, the feel of his cock against her, the groan that escapes him. Her lower lip catches between her teeth as she endeavors to keep it together long enough to direct him. But he is touching her at last, only serving to make her burn more for him instead of quenching the ache.

Curving into him, Pahja presses open-mouthed kisses along his jaw, letting her fangs drag over the soft, pale skin of his neck. They are not delicate people, the two of them, but she is careful not to break skin. There is a time and a place for roughness, and part of her desperately wants to test their limits, but now... now she just wants to bask in the glory of having him.
)

I want to come by your touch. ( That much should be obvious, the way she shifts down against his fingers, wanting more. Like this, she thinks, against his clothes -- if they stain then he will simply have to magic it away. No great feat for him, she's certain. ) And then I would have you strip down and lie there and fuck me until we exhaust ourselves. I want to see your face, Emet.

( She wants to see him lose himself. That is not so big of a request, Pahja thinks, that they can't come to an agreement. )
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[personal profile] likeyouknow 2021-12-27 06:06 pm (UTC)(link)
( Pahja knows that no one will understand this, how enamored they are with each other, how she trusts him and wants to be undone by his touch. How she loves him, and he her. But it isn't her job to explain herself to any who question her; she will relish every touch, every word from Emet in her own way. And shower him with her own until there is no mistaking the depths of her emotion.

His flush is endearing -- she reaches up to trace the bloom of red across his cheekbones before twisting her fingers into the hair at the nape of his neck. The other curls into the fabric of his clothes, relishing the feeling of it against her skin. Having him naked before her will come, just as sure as she will, but for now she enjoys the decadence of letting him have her bare before him.
)

I have no doubt--

( The light touch has her squirming against him in an attempt for more, mouth falling open as she holds his gaze -- golden, tired, and full of want and desire. She can only hope that he can see how much she intends to enjoy this on her own face, cheeks darkening with her own flush, spreading down her neck and over her chest.

When his fingers finally press up and touch her she rewards him with a sharp gasp and a tightening of her fingers. It isn't enough, it won't be enough until he is fingers deep in her. She moves again, a half-hearted protest of the pace he is testing out, rubbing up against his cock as much as she can at the same time.
)

Tease. ( She accuses him, mouth turning up into a small smirk as her legs twitch from the press of his thumb against her. ) More. Harder, Emet, I can take it--

( Even if he doesn't, even if he wants to make her squirm and beg for him, Pahja knows he won't leave her unsatisfied. )

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